I, Me and Myself

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

cry baby!!

i hate it when i cry, it s like a disease. i just cant stop those stupid tears that refuse to listen to my command and continue to pour out... at all the worst moments possible.

when your really really hurt and you want to make a person feel real bad then... NOOOOO.. then tears decide to take a break... the pretty big eyes manage to stay dry even if you dont blink for a minute!!
otherwise, when everyone is staring at you, when you dont want to look foolish, when it s the smallest thing in the world, the eyes give way.. like as if a dramatic movie is being enacted..argghhhhhh...
ok, enough bull shitting! i cried in front of my boss, i cant believe i admitted it, but i did, it was nothing. he was giving me constructive criticism.
True he referred to my article with terms like "shit" "terrible" "shit" "a joke" "badly written" and did i mention "shit??!!"
but then he was nice and sweet and told me i was learning and that i would always learn.... everything was fine till then cos even i was not happy with the article and i wanted to know what was wrong..... but just my luck...
before i knew it, my eyes were filling up with tears! oh i so wanted to stop myself, but i could not.. i could feel them fill my eye slowly, blurring my vision, bottom to top and then reach the edge and form a huge fat droplet before spilling out ....

my boss stopped talking and i tried to cover them up. it was just tears, i was not crying, it happens when ever i get very.. well...when i laugh, when i m nervous and when i get very very pissed off. just tears, no crying n all!! but my boss was not convinced!

i left the room, trying to laugh, (weird sight!!) feeling like the biggest idiot in the world.
it shouldn't be a big deal. i mean its ok to cry sometimes... especially after u have cried for Bruce almighty!!! (i cant believe i admitted that too!!!) .. anything is okay!!
i had a wise friend convince me in his wise own way...shit happens!!
then he immediately promised to piss on my boss !!! :)
another friend promised to beat him up.
but still..... i cried.
shessh what a baby!

Posted by vidi :: 10:18 AM :: 10 wisecracks:

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