I, Me and Myself

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

now or never....

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come WhateverWe will still beFriends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
----Vitamin C, Graduation (Friends Forever)

today is the first day of june, 2005. Final year in college. Final year of studies for many. Final goodbyes forever. As much as we can wish, life will never be the same again. We are all going to move on ….on the road that life present us with whether we like or not. It’s hard but it’s the truth.
The count down has begun. Nine more months and we won’t be coming back to classrooms, teachers we hate and subjects we hate even more.
The crossroads of life that everybody has been warning us about ever since class ten has finally arrived and I don’t know how to react. One thing I know for sure….k.mala would already be choking, unable to stop the extremely sad feeling coming from that corner of the heart that we have all been trying to avoid discussing (and she would also be cursing me for brining up this topic).
When I reached the tenth standard, I went on a nostalgic spree from the very beginning , quite like now. I bugged my friends to death about how this was the last first day of school ever, last sports day last lunch at school, last break time, last time we sang the school song and (happily) the last math class ever, for me at least. We all decided that on the last day when the whole school stands for a guard of honour and applauds the leaving batch of tenth and twelfth students, we would cry. When the time came, I could not cry. No coz I was not sad but I knew that I had enough memories after 12 years in school that would last me a lifetime and somewhere in my heart, the awareness that college was an extension of school life.
When I reached second P.U, I was sad but most of my new friends were continuing with me so no tears were spilled (other than k.mala, she cries at the drop a hat for such kind of things!! Like she is going to do now!!!).
Now it’s final year of college. I still remember the first day I came to college. I wore an orange salwar, scared, confused and still excited. The youngest branch of college. Today I’m the senior most and I cant say how different I feel. Seems just like yesterday I made all these friends who are still with me. But this year as we walk down the graduation aisle, there’s no coming back. Ever.
But today, as this song played in the background, I did not feel sad. I’m glad I did whatever I did in college. Guess the saying is true that you grow up with time. I’m going to miss all my friends but leaving school and coming to college has taught me that life takes you on unexpected paths but (hopefully) to the final goal you always wanted.
They say that college is the best part of your life, for me so far it has been (touchwood). I’ve met wonderful people, made great friends, had extremely “weird” teachers and even weirder class mates (yes bhatt!!! We do!), danced, acted( wow…that was unexpected!!!But… wow…), gossiped, backstabbed, got backstabbed!! (Ouch), learnt a loooot that does not come through books, organised various stuff and found responsibilities and earned respect, created an identity, had loads of crushes and got my heart broken, bunked classes and got caught, almost got suspended from college ( he he he that was fun, we should do that more often k.mala,kutty,halli!!!) been a part of the coolest team, gone to both pondy and pune (yeah baby) got caught by teachers and cried, ….I have done almost everything in college, except maybe have a boyfriend…well who knows, I still have nine months, don’t I? ;)
So who ever relates to this, it does not matter, if you love or hate college. It’s getting over in nine months and never coming back. So live it up. If there’s something you have to say, say it, something to do, do it. it's now or never. Remember it’s not the time that is important but “the moment, the moment”. Right faustus??!!:)

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