I, Me and Myself

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

light

so the year started of in a very pissing off manner. the big loss (yes it will take me some more time to get over that), then just everything else not going my way, things turning out to be worse than expected.... it was all a sign. my days of good fortune had long left my side and i was left trying to feel the grasp of the lonley life that surrounded me.
everything manged to piss me off. my college, my non existent eductaion, my even more bleak and non existent future plans, my friends.... every body. at the end of a hard day i was left with nothing but dissapointment. i din know what i wanted and so i dint know what to expect.
i was upset and was tired of searching for my share of happiness at every nook and conrner, at every innocent smile and at every undecidable action.
dint i deserve to be happy. where was the siver lining behind this big huge dark cloud of gloom. where was my happiness.
then suddenly, how the clouds came, they cleared. the sun shone through and lit up everything. it was a small crack, through which a faint beam of light struggled to stay alive. struggled to give me my share of deserved or undeserved visibilty. it was a small light that was in no match to the amount of darkness that surrounded me and yet ironically, there was not enough darkess to over come that faint beam of struggling light. and through it all ... i could see...through the gloom, faint outlines of hope were formed.
its never going to be fully lit up. it about knowing how to use the light.

Posted by vidi :: 7:56 AM :: 5 wisecracks:

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