I, Me and Myself
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
My point of viewMy friend broke the news to me as we were having lunch. after being quite disgusted by the weather and an upset tummy, this news not only shocked me but also reeled me into a state of fear.
as we hurried out of the restaurant, the sms's started flowing in. one could sense the urgency in every one's step. the shortcut back to office was not fast enough to stop people on streets warning us to go home. every one was on the phone. calling everyone else. warning every one else. asking loved ones to get home and stay there.
shops were pulling down their shutters and emplyoees could been seen rushing home.
my office was no diferent. after being nearly thrown out by my concerned seniors, ujju and i decided to go for home for good.
it s funny when your scared. everything seems to get larger than life. i could not get in touch with my parents who were traveling the entire day.
i could see the traffic pick up at an unearthly hour for jams.
hushed whispers were making rounds of how the 'riots' had already begun in the city.
schools and colleges were shut. final exams were indefintely postponed.
like a well oiled machinery, the great city of b'lore declared an unanimous and unconsious bundh.
as i walked the final few steps towards my house, the big mall had alreday made precautions by placing huge nets! auto drivers were demanding a bomb as stranded college girls tried to get home. the bus stop was overflowing.
as i walked ahead, three bikes came zoming by. they carried the yellow and red flag of karnataka.
they stoped in fron of this particular grocery store and demaned it to be shut. there was a cop standing by doing nothing. there was a stagnant crowd, waiting for someone to make the first move.
as i stood a few feet away from that threatning man, i could see the hatred, the violence he meant as he pointed the famed flag at a non- karnataka citizen demanding him to follow protocol.
medical stores were all shut as i thanked my stars for already buying necessary medical supplies for dad.
they have already started burning tyres and destroying property.
tomorrow will be a holiday.
Dr. Rajkumar died today.
RIP.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Photo Album1990, young aspirants, trying to look older than they are, posing behind their first official playground. god alone where they are now.
2001, a picture of my tenth graduation, the only picture i ever had of my first graduation with my best friend. she has gone far away. she is going to become a doctor...
a picture of three women in white. friends for five years in college. from the first day. matured from unsure girls into what each wanted to be.ironically enough, this was the first picture of only the three taken on the very last day of college, gradutaion day.
pictures of my friends in their childhood... :)
feb 13 2001, picture of me accepting an award on stage. during my tenth validectory function. first proudest moment in my life.... the picture looks smuged, out of focus...not the memory though.
jan 11, 2005 snakes and ladders, a milion pictures to comemorate this play and yet the best one being taken the day before the play. on food court.
jan 11, 2006 a bunch of strangers... a bunch of buddies... my bombay dreams getting fulfilled....
a picture with a boy. taken at the end of a boring english class in 2003. friend was on a photography spree and i obliged, i din want to pose alone, pulled boy in suit along. three years later he still posed with me as we left. nothing had changed and yet so much.
picture of a dancer, taken on a phone. big eyes and light reflecting from her bindi. sometimes it just speaks for itself.
picture of a singer. eyes closed, hand in back pocket and in complete control of the mike. somethings will never change.
Aug 8 2004 picture of a bunch of artistes on stage... enjoying themselves cos that s what they know to do.everyone still unaware of dritsikone.
a bunch of young journalists, satisfaction gleaming after spending time together... suddenly not wanting to go... with their hero.
2003 picture of two girls, one lost for a very long time, one still in possesion of the 'keep in touch' card she meant to give her 3 years ago
picture at a friends house... my new friends, my old friends.... lost somewhere
its fun to dig into albums.... reminds you of the happiness in the moment that flash went off..
Saturday, April 01, 2006
yesterday...yesterday wen you saw me for the first time,
you held me... promising never to let go.
yesterday wen you saw me take my first step,
you helped me... promising to always help.
yesterday you taught me right from wrong,
your lessons of truth ... promising me eternal hope.
yesterday you held my hand to help me cross the street
you were my support and staff... my pillar.
yesterday wen i told u how how the lion at the zoo
ate my hand, but i managed to decieve that beast;
you nodded along, giving appropriate exclamations.
yesterday you shouted at me for eating too many chocolates,
in front of mum....
while you secretly brought some to cheer me up
yesterday you saw me fall for the first time
you wiped my tears and asked me to be a big girl
yesterday you used to let me hang on your bisceps,
on only one hand.. and then show off.....
yesterday you used to scare me
with little devil stories(and faces) till i cried :)
yesterday wen you found out i could write
u made dreams of a booker prize
yesterday you fought for me
whenever you thought i was right
yesterday wen a boy came home,
...i saw the look of loss on your face.
yesterday you hid your disspointment
wen you saw me fail for the first time
and when i won....
you did everything to make sure
the whole world knew about it
yesterday you were proud of me,
yesterday you screamed at me
yesterday you told me to act my age.
today as i sit in front of you and
see you fight with me for an ice cream cone
(that you want all to yourself, with sprinkles added!)
and i ask you to act your age;
... i wonder
.... what ever happened to that yesterday?
love you daddy. :)
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